Wednesday, December 02, 2009 1:30 AM

Today I cried like a big baby again :'(
Although it was all because of you, but partly was because of my friends.
I feel so disappointed in myself & so do you. I cannot blame your choice.
I'm not as brave as you think, I'm not as strong as you think,
I'm not as fine as you think, I'm not as happy as you think.
I'm not! I'm not! I'm not! I'm not!

At least today I try to control my tears that is for you.
Although I did not manger to stop it, at least I try.
I really try & did my best after all.

I just don't understand why, the person I wish to be there for me is not here.
Not a single min. AM I ASKING TOO MUCH?!!
It is better to lose your pride to the one you love,
than to lose the one you love to your pride.

I can't even believe myself, today Mr chua,
came to me & told me "BE BRAVE!"
All this while, the countless tear that fell for you.
I know myself! I know how much i miss you & love you.
Because our love is so funny, perhaps I should said I'm so funny.

I know I will fall again if I continue yet I still go for it.
LOVE, why are you scary?
I'm scared, I'm afraid.
love i hate you, yet love you so much.

I'm no longer want you to be my boy, because i want you to be my man.
If only you have understand it long ago,
everything may not goes this way.
We were mean to be together once, perhaps we were mean to be separate too.
Together was by fate & choice but we separate not by fate but by choice.
Silly us!

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